Ferris wheels

I was home, and there was the annual fair going on...with all the fanfare of a carnival. And a very very special friend of mine...someone who's almost as close to me as my own brother visited by chance. He is homophobic though, but that's another thing. So we went to the fair, and for the first time in my life, I suddenly had the courage to get on the Ferris wheel...and he was there with me...and we were both shit scared, and were screaming our guts out. He's a doc, and then he said that I should find a fixed point of focus, and everything would be fine. So I stared at his eyes, and did not take my eyes off his till the ride was over. And everything was fine...even great...even almost orgasmically great!

Funny thing how our lives are just like ferris wheel...everything would be just fine, or even great if we could only find a fixed point to focus on.

I wish it were easy to find that point to focus on.

I wish the point of focus always stayed stationary relative to me like his eyes on the ferris wheel gondola.

I wish I could find a place to stand steady for a moment with someone.

I wish I could make that moment eternity.