Sunday, February 15, 2009

Madonna mia?


Apparently this nude picture of Madonna sold for $37000. While I definitely would not want to see this picture day in day out, apparently there are others who would.

To think what Madonna has done to Madonna!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

The married guy

How casually do we take casual sex?

I would like to think that I take it pretty casually. I have had sex with at least two married guys, having known beforehand they were married. I have had sex with a man who was married to another man. I also had the singular experience of having sex with a guy who, after the act was over, told me he had a girlfriend, and that the girlfriend knew that he was having sex with guys, and that apparently she found it arousing!

However, recently I had made a resolution that I would not have sex with married men. I did not want to be responsible for any heartaches. But today I am wondering if that was rather queer of me. Ideal casual sex, like the ideal geometrical point, should have no past and no future, simply existence. So why should it matter if or not the partner is married? Quite a few of my friends do not have any qualms if the person they are having sex with is married. Somehow I cannot quite do that, I feel awkward, even a touch guilty.

Is it simply being in the right, feeding the self-righteous ego? Or is it some subconcious defense against the possibility of falling for a guy that I cannot have? Or is it simply the fact that most married men are anyways not worth having sex with?

What confuses me is that I do not think I would have a problem breaking in upon a couple, unmarried, should I desire one of them, or simply for the heck of it. But I would have a problem with a married man. Perhaps I have been, indeed, conditioned by the age old social norms and customs to sub-conciously identify marriage as the only acceptable sign of a relationship. Perhaps I should simply go out and have sex with as many married men as I can find so I can refute this thought. That should be interesting, if not satisfying.

It's ironic how finding answers is so much more difficult and ambiguous than finding a hook-up on one of the sites.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Perhaps love.

We say everything but the things we should.

Denial, or simply hesitation I do not care to know.